So tomorrow is D-Day...the first day alone with the boys. I'm thinking it will be fine and go ok. I fully expect a small break down from Decovin when I can't be at his beck & call right when he wants a "nack" (snack) or when he wants me to play with him or whatever while I am feeding Camden. I'm ready for that. I just keep taking deep breaths and know it will be fine...millions of women in the past and present have done this and they all lived. I also keep trying to tell myself that no one has ever died from crying too much so if all 3 of us cry tomorrow, it's ok. :-)
I'm feeling really good though. It's like I get spurts of energy and I am feeling more and more back to normal. I am already in some of my pre-pregnancy clothes and will continue to try to get into my pre-pre pregnancy clothes from before Decovin was born. I was getting awful close right before I found out I was pregnant again. But I have motivation. I have to fit into a bridesmaid dress by June that is equivalent to a size 14...so here's hoping I can do it! :-) I plan on going back on Weight Watchers again real soon. I think I am waiting to get down to my pre-pregnancy weight before I join back up again. I am doing good so far. I only have like 10 pounds to go to get to that weight and then I will be off and running. Once the weather gets nicer I will be able to start walking again with the boys during the day, etc.
So anyway, I am feeling very positive right now and am looking forward to the future.
Well, I need to go make lunch. Love you all and thanks so much for your words of wisdom and believing in us. :-)
